utterly defeated

i'm sick - i'm physically ill after watching the Eagles go down to be 0-2 to start this season...and we're 0-2 having lost to the Packers and Redskins...both of whom weren't even .500 teams last year. None of this might make any sense - i'm not going to censor my thoughts. I just need to rant and get it out...

Charles Barkley's commentary on TV during the game pissed me off - talking about Philly fans - saying we don't give the respect to McNabb and Reid that he thinks they deserve. Saying we turn on them so quickly - that we've already turned. Look buddy - it's always a tease with this team - they get our hopes up only to be devastated at a big game in the postseason - but you know what? I still come back every time - I still let you charge me more and more money every season - I still pay ridiculous amounts of money on the black market to follow the team on the road for both regular season and post season games. I have the right to be upset and boo when we don't win - when we don't play the way we're capable of playing. But having been to quite a few stadiums across the country, I have to say I haven't experienced the diehard fandom - those who eat, live, and breath their team the way Eagles fans do. We boo because we care dickhead! You're still salty about your time here. You just don't understand the anatomy of the Philadelphia sports fan.

I'm going to be in a foul mood the next few days over this...but I won't give up on my team. I remember starting the season 0-2 in 2003, then after a 3rd week bye, Joe and I caught them up in Buffalo for their first win of the season. This was the same year that Westbrook had something like a 98 yard return for a touchdown in the last minutes of the 4th quarter against the Giants a few weeks after that. Even last season, after McNabb went down vs. the Titans on 11-19, we came back under Garcia's lead and made it to the divisional game in the postseason. We're just waiting to get back to that big game and win that trophy. Anything can happen - but we have to start gelling on the field. The momentum is off. We're too tentative - we're not aggresive enough - I don't see any confidence out there on the field with our guys in green. But i'm not going to stop believing in them.

The red sox lost, yankees won, mets lost, and the Phillies barely won (they blew an 11 run lead at one point) - so on the baseball front it was a very good night for me. I need to be thinking of that as I fall asleep tonight so I can have happy dreams and start tomorrow off on a better note...