Woo Hoo!!

I did some speedwork after work last night along Kelly Drive - the weather was perfect for it. I couldn't tell you how fast I was going but it felt great - felt like I was running at a faster pace than usual, even during the recovery minutes. My legs didn't cramp up, my hip was feeling ok, my scabbed up shin wasn't throbbing. My eyes weren't focused down on the ground but I rather just took in everything around me and felt free. As I was heading back to my car in the direction of the Art Museum, I was imagining how I would feel at that spot in just over a week when i'm on mile 24 and 25. Physically, i'll probably be quite tired and achey - but mentally, I want to remember how I felt last night and feel that way again when I approach the finish line.

I'm nervous - i'm very very nervous for the marathon. I get excited butterflies in my stomach thinking about it. I feel quite ill-prepared to be doing this. I don't recall one week where I stuck to the training schedule. I've haven't lifted or taken yoga in weeks - maybe months at this point. My diet has been fairly unhealthy. Why have I faltered when I knew i'd be running in my first marathon this November? I really couldn't tell you. I know i'm stressed out and unhappy with how a few things in my life have turned out. Transition is stressful - but it's not an excuse to lose focus. I just have to put it all behind me now and just put everything I have into running and crossing that finish line at mile marker 26.2.