After an amazing New Year's weekend with friends, both old and new, in NYC, I returned home on the 1st in time to watch the string bands in the mummer's parade on the television while eating a cheesesteak. Perfect way to begin the New Year, I thought to myself.
I woke up January 2nd, which happened to be a Monday, and something was different. Somehow, I found the motivation to take control of my diet and exercise. I had the determination to get it done - the goal being back in a bikini come summer. I somehow felt free of the demons inside that were weighing my down. I have no idea where my life is headed. I still have too many interests and am indecisive about my next move. And, ok, i'll admit throughout the first 5 weeks of this year, I have had some stressful moments thinking about what the hell i'm going to do. However, i'm beginning to recognize that i'm in a wonderful place in my life, where I can go anywhere and do anything. There is nothing tying me down anywhere. It's rather exciting to think about that.
I'm happy to report, I lost 11.2 pounds the first 5 weeks of 2012. I got into more of an exercise routine and actually began looking forward to going to the gym everyday. I've followed weight watchers religiously - i've stayed within my allotted points and have found that after 5 weeks, i'm not as hungry and I don't crave all the bad stuff all the time like I used to. I'm excited, and I really think i'm going to get to that goal this time. Bikini Body!
The new school semester has begun, and i'm just worn out. I need a break from school. I'm lacking motivation in this area right now. Anatomy & Physiology II and Microbiology are the courses i'm taking for credit. I'm also a CLA instructor for a General Biology class, which takes up an additional 10 hours of my week. I find what i'm learning in my classes interesting, i'm just lacking the discipline to hit the books once I get home. Hoping I turn this around soon - just need to make it to May. Then, I have decided I am taking a break from school for a bit. I need a little time away from papers and exams hanging over my head all the time.
Like the title of this post, January ended with a bang - to my car. I was driving home from school on Monday, January 30th at about 4:45 pm. I was about a mile from my house, waiting at a light, when bam, my rear windown shattered and I was jolted in my seat. A minivan had hit a GMC pickup truck and drove that truck into me. Apparently the minivan driver was intoxicated and was taken away by police. Myself and the woman in the truck were taken away by ambulance. In the end, I was fine - a classic case of whip lash and lumbar strain, but my car wasn't so fine. I was in shock for some time and very sore for the first few days. It's been five days since the accident now, and I feel like i'm getting back to normal.
Of course, you can imagine, I was upset that I couldn't work out this week, with all the progress I was making. I weigh-in at WW on Fridays. Somehow, despite my lack of activity, I still lost 1.6 pounds in that week. That was huge. It showed me that i'm beginning to master how to eat properly to lose the weight. That's not to say I can't wait to get back to the gym next week (hopefully). All being said, i'm feeling pretty ok about life right now.
