The feeling of doom and gloom on Sunday nights is pretty miserable - but I can't escape it. I've begun to live for the weekend and suffer through the weeks. Life shouldn't be like that. It has to change. I'm making changes.
The first change will come in June. Yes, I moved into my new condo downtown only last August. But i'm moving again in June - to one of two places. The first choice is to be into Patrick's house - but this is contigent upon him selling his current house by then and moving to a new one in PA. If this hasn't happened by then, i'll be moving back to my mother's temporarily, until Pat is able to move. The reason? Money. I'm living paycheck to paycheck - i'm not able to pay down debt or save for the future or even a rainy day. And that frightens me, especially since I don't feel as secure in my job during this recession. I also need money to carry out my future plans - going back to school. Yes, I have decided that I do want to pursue becoming a PT. I can't tell you how excited the thought makes me.
So, as long as i'm able to find a sublet for my condo - i'll be moving forward with this plan come June. It's tough right now - but I have to believe that light is at the end of the tunnel.
